Then all of the sudden, after a year and a half of trying, I was pregnant. It was like I was hit by a truck. The only "glow" I had was a shade of green from all the nausea. Somehow 16 hours of sleep a day didn't seem like enough. I was on one set of steroids because, due to my Lupus, my white blood cell count plummeted. This steroid contributed to my 60+ pounds that I packed on during the pregnancy. I had to start buying the pint size ice cream tubs because I had to limit myself somehow...I had no control when scooping my own bowl. I don't think I exercised once during the entire 8 months that I was pregnancy.
Then the sweet little precious came unexpectedly 5 weeks early...during hurricane Isaac at a hospital an hour away from our house. Kent was back and forth because I was in the hospital for over a week. The entire experience was just so traumatic and I feel like I'm finally moving past it. But we are definitely one and done kind of family.
Back to the blogging. I was very determined to not change the direction of my blog towards baby, baby, baby. But then I am finally realizing that after staying at home with him for over a year, what the hell else do I have to talk about. I have to include him in my blog, otherwise there will be no blog.
I want to be clear. I am so happy to have Rhett and he brings a certain light to my life that is inexplicable. I have just had a hard time figuring out how to be myself while being a mom at the same time. I used to be the this independent person that was constantly on the go...trying to figure out my next trip, but having a kid reels you into a world of limited freedom and a sometimes an overwhelming sense of responsibility. Those were the two aspects of parenthood that I hadn't considered before. I hadn't planned on stopping my active life, I was going to continue working, I was just going to squeeze him into it somehow. After many sicknesses throughout his first year, I realized that I had to slow down. I'm still adjusting.
I do, however, want to return to writing again. It may not be as often as I used to. The material that I cover may be a little different. Here I am, the new me. Without the constant encouragement of Natalie, one of my few readers,this blog would have never been possible...and this is why I love her. With that, I will leave you with a song that reminds me of her.
Then the sweet little precious came unexpectedly 5 weeks early...during hurricane Isaac at a hospital an hour away from our house. Kent was back and forth because I was in the hospital for over a week. The entire experience was just so traumatic and I feel like I'm finally moving past it. But we are definitely one and done kind of family.
Back to the blogging. I was very determined to not change the direction of my blog towards baby, baby, baby. But then I am finally realizing that after staying at home with him for over a year, what the hell else do I have to talk about. I have to include him in my blog, otherwise there will be no blog.
I want to be clear. I am so happy to have Rhett and he brings a certain light to my life that is inexplicable. I have just had a hard time figuring out how to be myself while being a mom at the same time. I used to be the this independent person that was constantly on the go...trying to figure out my next trip, but having a kid reels you into a world of limited freedom and a sometimes an overwhelming sense of responsibility. Those were the two aspects of parenthood that I hadn't considered before. I hadn't planned on stopping my active life, I was going to continue working, I was just going to squeeze him into it somehow. After many sicknesses throughout his first year, I realized that I had to slow down. I'm still adjusting.
I do, however, want to return to writing again. It may not be as often as I used to. The material that I cover may be a little different. Here I am, the new me. Without the constant encouragement of Natalie, one of my few readers,this blog would have never been possible...and this is why I love her. With that, I will leave you with a song that reminds me of her.
Nice post today, can't wait to read the next one in nine months
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